30 Weeks.. 0 Days

How our baby Walker J is growing:

Our baby's about 15.7 inches long now, and he weighs almost 3 pounds (like a head of cabbage). A pint and a half of amniotic fluid surrounds him, but that volume will decrease as he gets bigger and takes up more room in your uterus. His eyesight continues to develop, though it's not very keen; even after he's born, he'll keep his eyes closed for a good part of the day. When he does open them, he'll respond to changes in light but will have 20/400 vision — which means he can only make out objects a few inches from his face. (Normal adult vision is 20/20.)

Let the water works begin!!!

So, I think I have done pretty good so far through out this pregnancy about being emotional. Well, I finally broke down last night! I don't know what it was but I just couldn't stop crying. I had a million and one things running through my head. I'm hoping the ultrasound tomorrow shows that everything is still going good and that the placenta has moved so the birth is not difficult. I was thinking about Robert and hope that he adjusts well to the baby and doesn't think that we love him any less because there is a new little one. I have a ton of things that I should be doing in my house to get ready for Walkers arrival, but I just can't seem to get motivated ( you would think that him arriving would be motivation enough!). I hope that I can be a great mom to both of my babies. I worry that I will be less of one for some reason. I want to be the best I can be and give my children all the love, attention, and anything else they need and deserve. I have truly enjoyed every minute of this pregnancy ( besides the morning sickness in the beginning of course.) and I can't believe how fast it has been going by, I know I mention that in every posting, but it just amazes me how it is drawing to a close in 9 weeks. I am going to miss my little man kicking me like crazy, I am going to miss Robert laying his head on my belly and telling "Walkie" that he loves him and wants to see him. It melts my heart every single time. and finally.. As most of you may know from the beginning John and I have said that this will be our last child. We have discussed me getting a tubal ligation at the time of my c-section. Well that's what started my water works last night as I lay there thinking I will never experience this wonderful feeling ever again. So just like everyone has said we would, we are now rethinking it. Not that we are thinking that we want another child, because we are pretty certain that we only want our precious two. Just a very emotional decision to make right now!


ON a lighter note... We have decided to hire someone to pour our concrete in the backyard for us! I think we are both very excited about that! I finally decided on the bedding for Walker and got it ordered, should be here this week! Can't wait to pick paint out now! And to pick out the crib and dresser!! We are taking our concealed weapons permit class this weekend. Johns dad has also been wanting to take the class also, so John and I decided that would be a fun fathers day to have his mom and dad join on saturday for the class, then pick up the munchkin and go have a relaxing dinner at the little Stockton Cafe. And Sunday is going to be Johns day. I am going to take him to pick out his present, which I'm thinking he has decided on power tools for the house, then whatever else he would like to do! I'm also really excited for my mom to be home!!! My family left for Florida last Saturday. I know it hasn't even been a week yet, but man do I miss them!! I didn't realize how often I talk to my mom and sister. I don't think I could go longer then a week without them, and of course my dad!

Well.. I guess that about does it for today!! Sorry such a long blog, but hey what is blogging for?!